Mr Right??

What is love??what is true love??what is soulmate?? is that easy to meet?? 

I can't say love is an easy stuff to deal with!

I'm trying to define what love and true love is. By defining the meaning sometime I can figure out what I should to deal with. Perhaps, this writing will be a bit weird because (maybe) this is the first time I'm talking about love which I find "difficult" and sharing what I feel about love, particularly loving someone special 

Well, I'm currently single, no boyfriend or special one to be loved (I think), I don't know if someone has a feeling with me because I never get any confession so far (hahaha..how confident I am saying that!) Again, I'm saying that I'm single and looking for the special one, I mean for special  and everlasting relationship.. :D 

I know that I have a lot of boy-friends (just friend), unfortunately none has come into special relationship. I don't know why but that's fine for me. Until now, at my 26th years old girl (or woman) some close friends and relatives ask about "special relationship" 

From my perspective, first, special relationship is not an easy stuff to start. Perhaps, people think that study abroad for master even PhD are even harder. But I prove that the way I reach it is much clearer and the goal is visible, whereas in special relationship, I haven't seen any prospective steps and goal in the case of who will be my Mr. Right! Those are the most difficult questions I have to answer first. But it's too rational, as a relationship is about feeling and can't be interpreted like science. 

Second, it's about timing. I am not saying that I don't wanna have someone special now. I would say I really want the one! But maybe the moment I meet him is not the perfect one yet. Outside of my desire, there is the faith and plan from God controlling my life. I'm sure He has already arranged Mr Right in the perfect time for me. Let me just wait for His decision to gather us in official relationship of marriage. 

So in my conclusion, it's not me that refuse to be in special relationship yet the time, the one, and the condition haven't matched, perhaps. I'm sure there will be the time that I meet Mr. Right who will be the only one I'm spending the rest of my life with. Then during the period I'm waiting for him, let me pursue the bi dream! As Allah said, a good man is for a good woman and the other way around. We'll see...;) 

Groetjes! 

Written in my contemplation, February 2014